Instagram made me feel bad about myself⎜Hi everyone. I hope you’re having a great Summer so far? Mine started very normal and in July I finally found a job! Everything went so fast and I still feel like I need some time to process everything. My new job is going pretty well and my colleagues are such kind, helpful and sweet women.
So as I tried to focus more on my new job, I noticed how I started putting my blog and Instagram behind. I am so sorry for that, because maybe I gave a feeling that I no longer care about them. But no worries, I do care and am very thankful to have you supporting me ❤︎!
The truth is that I no longer feel the need to share daily posts on my Instagram. I just feel so demotivated when it comes to creating new content and growing my account. Instagram hasn’t made things easy for their users and we all feel the effects on our engagement. I am losing followers, my IG Stories and Posts are still Shadowbanned after 4 months (😭) and my engagement has dropped big time.
I took some time to re-evaluate my content and my interests and noticed that, however I am still being ME, I’ve lost a part of myself along the way. When I started with Instagram, my goal was to inspire my followers with Yoga- and food related content. After 3 years of blogging (what, already?!) I saw how my feed changed. My content creation got better, but I am sharing less food- and yoga posts. It feels like Beauty and Fashion took over my feed and the real intention of my account got lost.
Besides that I think it is so hard to compete with those big influencers and bloggers. Compared to them I am just a small person. Or at least that’s how I feel about it…
Why Instagram made me feel bad about myself:
As mentioned above I feel very small compared to the bigger accounts. But I do know that I should not be focusing on that, because not everything about Instagram is real. Most people buy tons of followers, likes, comments, views,… These days you can just buy everything to make yourself look important. Knowing that, we should not feel bad about ourselves or even compare our worth to someone else’s.
But then why do I feel bad when looking at my feed?! Because I feel like I am pointless and don’t reach the right people with what I am sharing. All those big bloggers are acting special and changing personalities.. I don’t want to become like them. And that is what makes me afraid to grow.. Being scared to lose my personality and my affection with my followers.
I used to love being on Instagram and being an Influencer, because I shared what I loved. And now I feel sh*tty, because I no longer share my true interests.
As from today..
So as from today I will continue to share what I really love: Yoga, Food and Lifestyle. And that is exactly what I shared with my Instagram followers in my latest post:
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ƁƐ ƳOU ❣️ Hi everyone! How are y’all doing today? I am currently in bed with a flu 🤒, which sucks to be honest. I could feel it coming two days ago, but refused to give my body some rest.. and now I’m paying the price. That’s what happened when you’re a stubborn person 😅. Fortunately I have my cats and @theofficialmrboyfriend to nurse me 🤗. Let’s hope I can get to work tomorrow, because lying in bed isn’t as fun as it sounds 🤞🏼. #realtalk Yup, it’s that time again: 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐋 𝐓𝐀𝐋𝐊 💥 I kinda feel like I lost myself on Social Media. Don’t get me wrong, I am still being me and sharing my honest opinion with you. But my main topics and interests kinda got lost along the road. I used to share more Yoga- and Food related posts, but now it feels like Fashion and Beauty have taken over my feed. I am NOT a fashion blogger (but do like Fashion as I work in this sector) and am not a beauty expert. Of course I like to pamper myself and to wear beautiful clothes, but sharing these as my main topic isn’t “ME”. So I’ve decided to share what I truly love: 𝐘𝐨𝐠𝐚 – 𝐅𝐨𝐨𝐝 – 𝐋𝐢𝐟𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐲𝐥𝐞. And I’d like to say “𝘛𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘬 𝘺𝘰𝘶!” to everyone who is still following and supporting me ❤️. Each one of you is A-MA-ZING❣️ #fitgirlsguide #popflex #popflexactive #blogilatescommunity #fitfambe #fitdutchies #fitgirlsdoitbetter #yogawear #brita #fitgirlsinspire #yogagirl #fitcommunity #fitblogger #belgianblogger
It was scary to post this, but my followers are very supportive. Especially my Yoga friends and those who follow me since a while. A few of them replied to my post saying “I do miss your yoga posts.” and that made me feel kinda sad.
But everything will change and I will go back to the reason why I started blogging in the first place: to share my Yoga and Food experiences and passions. I am really looking forward to joining and hosting Yoga Challenges like old times and sharing my delicious food posts (and make you feel hungry, hihi 😋).
So, have you ever lost yourself in your journey of blogging or Instagramming?